Sania - A Chubby girl, Loves her life, Loves food, Loves Studying (Academic), Loves reading (Novels, Stories, Poetry), Loves Rain and Winter, wants to be a Singer.
Her Family:
Dad - Unemployed, Alcoholic and Abusive, Mom - Hard Working, Runs the Family and Strict, Younger Brother - Good at Sports, Studies and Very Naughty, Grand Mother - Strict, Very Religious, Loving but Scary.
How was Sania's Life?
Well, She basically lived with her grand mother and 3 Aunt's (Father's Sisters) until the age of 05, then her Parents and her little brother moved in. She was really good at studies, moved to the next class always on Scholarships, never made friends due to fear of family, Spoke to everyone but not close to anyone, Popular girl at School, talkative and active, believes in a Healthy Competitive Environment, Loves Colours, Always a bright Smile on the face, Cheerful, Participated in Various Activities (Singing, Dancing, Debate, Sports - Kind off good at it as well).
She was always told to live a quiet life, go to School, only Study, Don't talk to people, Come back home directly from School, Don't Roam around, Behave like a girl.
She started to learn Cooking from her Grandma at the age of 08. Had to do all House Chores. So it was normal Girl life.
Who was her Dearest?
Her Grandma - though her Grandma was Strict, Sania enjoyed being around her, learning things.
Her Aunts - Yes, Sania loved her Aunts, Her Youngest Aunt was always her Inspiration, The Boldness, The Do or Die Attitude, The way she carried herself. Sania literally followed the Footsteps of her Youngest Aunt and tried be like her.
Her Ambition:
To Study Well, Be Successful and Independent, Be Rich on her Own, Travel the World. Also she had a Dream to be able to Sing for a Huge Audience, Wanted to learn Music.
"Struggles??? Everyone has struggles right?? Well, what's it about Sania's Struggles?"
Yes, everyone has Struggles in Life, Everyone goes through a Rough Patch, hurt, broke, shattered, unexpected twists and turns, Etc., One can never say that it's only their life which is filled with Agony and Struggles. One can never say that their pain is the biggest pain. No, everyone has their own story, their own Pain, their own way of handling it.
What was is about Sania? What was her share of pain? What was it that she was going through?
She was all happy living her life with her Grandma, Aunts and yeah, well her parents and her brother (Her Brother, She Loves him dearly, like a lot, but never expressed it or showed it).
She had Completed her Schooling, Passed with the Highest Marks in the Entire School. She was very happy, even though her family did not acknowledge or rejoice over it, she was happy and proud of herself.
Now, it was about her College, She Joined a College which was not very big on a Scholarship provided from her School, as she did not have much of Financial Support from her Family and also she believed that it's not the Place where you learn from, it's the way you learn things.
So yeah, she was excited, Not about Making Friends or anything, she was excited because she could continue her Studies and she promised herself that she will not get distracted and her Priority will be to keep studying well enough to keep getting Scholarships for further studies, she did not want to stop Studying.
Also, she had to give up on her dream of learning Singing and Music, yet her passion for it never ended, she continued Singing at small events or gatherings, she was Content with it.
But, life isn't so smooth, is it?
An Unexpected twist changed her entire life, which brings her to this Place with thoughts in her to end her life. She was Acrophobic and Hydrophobic, but that fear didn't stop her from standing near a Deep Water body, closing her Eyes, having run through of her Entire life till date.
So Her Life in between her College Beginning and Her Graduation, it was a roller-coaster.
Everything was fine, until due to some family issues she decided to leave home and never return back. She did, she packed her Stuff up, she had some Savings and she walked out. She was on her own now. Her family did not stop her from leaving, she was hurt, Very Hurt, but decided to live on. She promised herself that she will never return to that house and will make sure that her Parents will someday come to her and be proud of her for who she is.
She worked on herself in accordance to the Promise she made to herself will leaving home. She Achieved it. Her Mother and Brother now live with her (not her own House, but yeah in the house that she is paying rent for). Her father occasionally came in Drunk, caused a mess at home and left. She forced herself to not react over it for the sake of her mother.
If you are Confused on why Sania's Mother and Father are living apart now, it's because of the caste difference, both had a love marriage against their families (her Parents had a huge fight back at home due to some issue with religion - about which religion will be applicable for Sania's Brother or something like that - Unclear to Sania even to this day) However, she just let her Mother and brother stay at her place because yes that's what she wanted, to live with her Family Someday. She finally had it, even though her Father didn't move in, she was fine (Something's better than Nothing, Right?).
Once the Flashback in her head was going to end, she was going the Jump in the water body. Yes, that would put an end to all her Miseries.
It's the Year 2018, she had completed her Graduation, Satisfied enough with her Scores, She also got a Job, but always felt alone and Empty. She was standing there, ready to end life. Why?
If everything was fine or Manageable, why was Sania standing there to die?
Well, it's the same day when her father came home drunk. She sighed deeply and carried on with whatever she was doing in her Room. She heard a loud sound of Glass breaking on the floor; she got out of her room only to see a Photo Frame which had a really important picture lying on the floor with its frame broke. She started picking up the broken frame, glass pieces and the Photo from the floor, when her Father just held her hair and yanked her, he started hitting her and used a language with all curse words, he blamed her for the family to fall apart and spoke words which really hurt her Deep.
But the last words spoken by her father before leaving the house struck her "Why were you even born, or why don't you just die?, If you are dead my Son and My wife will return back to me, Just go kill yourself and stop making my life hell and making me separate from my Son and Wife".
She was not upset because her father hit or used words or said those statements, she was hurt that she was the reason of why her father was lonely. The same Loneliness feeling she has been living with, She had become the reason of her father feeling that shitty Loneliness.
She felt her father was right, her mom and brother moved in with her only because of her existence. If she did not exist, Her Mother and Brother will move back to her Father.
So that's it, she decided she will put an end to her Father's Misery (I guess, ya'll understood why she was standing there now).
Sania was standing there with her earphones on, still thinking about things and ready to Jump anytime.
She suddenly heard a soothing deep Voice in her ears through the earphones; she closed her eyes and just starting feeling the song, tears running down her cheeks and heart slowly feeling this unknown peace.
The Song ended, She Opened her Eyes and started walking back to her place, she got back home. After taking a Hot Shower, She had her Dinner and went to her room and lay on her bed and closed her eyes.
She saw a dream, she was in a Garden all alone, then came a butterfly, a beautiful blue butterfly, San followed it around and reached a river and stopped all of a Sudden, but she wanted to get the Butterfly and it was slowly moving away from her towards the other side of the River. Sania was disappointed and unknowingly shed a tear in the river, which somehow turned into the start of a bridge which slowly stretched up to the other side of the river. Sania immediately got on the bridge and was again chasing the Butterfly, while doing so she reached a Spot where there numerous Butterflies flying around her and then this Particular Blue Butterfly landed on Sania's Shoulder, She was Smiling and was so happy, she twirled around and Bang, she fell on the floor from her Bed and the Dream ended.
Sania was still smiling and then it hit her, she was supposed to jump from river but she didn't. She remembered about the song, she immediately got her phone and checked for it, The Song's name was Butterfly by an artist she had heard about from her friend, She then smiled thinking about the song and the also the flashback of how her day had been, she re-watched the Song on YouTube with it's English meaning and went back to sleep, Knowing that this song made her heart feel peaceful, the song somehow told her that she is valuable and worthy.
"Will you stay by my side
Will you promise me
If I let go of your hand, you'll fly away and break
I'm scared scared scared of that
Will you stop time, If this moment passes
As though it hadn't happened
I'm scared scared scared I'll lose you
Butterfly like a Butterfly, Just like a Butterfly bu butterfly
Butterfly like a butterfly, Just like a Butterfly bu butterfly
You're just like a Butterfly"
The Next Morning Sania woke up feeling different. She definitely had things to worry about, but she just felt less afraid and more confident to face it all.
She sat on her tiny little mattress thinking about the previous day and then had mentally made a note to look up to the song again as it gave her strength at her most vulnerable state. She then got up and eventually started her day, making a decision that she will never give up on herself and work on things with a fresh approach.
After a day again filled with a lot of work and pressure, Sania was back on her Mattress and fetched for the same song that had spoken life to her. While she was listening to the song she remembered how once her friend had told her about the Artist of this song and how they have been helping a lot of people to get out of depression and also helped a lot of people grow up in life through their song. She got curious and looked up on the internet about the artist; she was indeed surprised to the incidents and stories of people related to the Artist.
She looked up a few songs that were on top recommendation, followed up by the translations and was amazed on how each song is so relatable and comforting.
Off course she knew the survival stories are not fake, because she herself is a survivor. She Thanked the Artist with all of heart and wished for their wellbeing and success. She also decided to start listening to their songs and know more about them and that's how she got to know BTS (Bangtan Sonyeondan), Each member was of the group has a unique quality on their own and Sania couldn't resist the charm. She instantly became a fan or to be honest she became an ARMY.
7 boys from different regions of South Korea, Destiny brought together and as i would put it in my words "Modern Day God's Angels" to bring back Love, Peace, Kindness, Compassion and many more good emotions into the World that was filled with negativity, hatred, etc.
Their hardship from back then to even know is very much known even to the people who hate or pretend to hate BTS.
In spite of the Language barrier, these boys managed to make home space in hearts of people all across the globe by their honesty, dedication and hard work, their passion towards making the world a better place to live in, through their music.
Well, they definitely succeeded and will continue to bloom and will forever live in hearts of people. BTS has saved many lives and very carefully and beautifully brought people out of depression, suicidal thoughts, stress, anxiety and many other issues and has motivated them to be a better person in the most simplest and subtle manner.
Every song has deep meaning to which a common / ordinary person very much relates. Their songs have been solutions available for the regular and daily struggles we go through. If not solutions, they at least provide the comfort a human requires to keep going on in life.
There is a lot more that could be said about the 7 Normal boys turned "World Healers BTS", but i would only conclude by saying that the existence of these men is purely magical and heavenly, can never ever be defined by just a few words, BTS is something that has to be felt.
Okay, so Sania is a die hard BTS ARMY, She started off her life with a totally new aspect and guess what, she has been stepping up her life game and has been winning every battle that comes her and facing every struggle with confidence and she is now a Strong, Determined, Kind, Passionate, Brave, Happy and Lively Person.
That's what BTS turned her into. Yes, she does meet failures on her path, but that doesn't make her weak anymore. Her steps that started moving forward being shaky and wobbly are now stronger in grip and she fights like a warrior.
She doesn't back off, no matter what. She really learnt to love herself and speak herself and puts her learning into practice. She is always grateful to BTS for making her the woman she is today.
They did eventually make that naive and weak little girl into a Strong Better Person she is today.
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