Last night , I was really clumsy to make myself something up. I was too tired to do so. Actually, the tiring thing was something else, other than the hard work I did mostly on working days. It was something unusual.
I am a high school student and I go to school every day. Nothing interesting here. Well, well ,well. I used to be a topper when I was in kindergarten and before senior classes. And my age got inversely proportional to my marks. And being from a middle class family , my parents had high expectations from me. They wanted me to go for medical. Actually, I wanted it . And there was no bit about it. It is not even now. It's just , my results didn't give a positive impression. I don't whether you should compare them with my being eligible for neet. But anyway, my parents did last night. Actually, he was my father when I adored the most. I have often thought of him as my idol. But it hurts when he scolds me. Last night , he called me useless. I knew he just said it and not with any intention but I was hurt. I didn't cry but this time I was so hurt due to his scolding that I wanted to make him beleive I can. I didn't knew what to do. I was just too emotional at that moment and I picked up my phone and entered :- "book publish". I got a website and boom , it was the start. I thought, I found a way. I didn't knew whether I can make it but i knew , i can try and fail . I published my first poetry book with over 100 poems. It was tough job making a presentation about it. No job is easy in this world. Days went by and i didn't got any response and i thought i got scammed but i had hope. This was the first time i was being myself. I believed in myself. I knew I can do it. Doubts pinched me hard and thoughts bleeded but my heart was so heartbroken that no wound was so intense than those words of my father so I just stepped ahead. Months went by and I had no hope within myself. I knew no grammar better than many authors but I was confident about my feelings that I have put upon my words and texts. One day I received a notification. One book has been sold successfully. This was my happiest moment and when I received my first payment, I was crying hard. I knew not what to do. I wanted to accomplish this moment and it was standing right in front of me. I waited for some more months and within this time , many of my books were sold . I had enough proof of my success by the end of the year and when I went to tell my father , I was shivering. I hands were not stable and my legs were all shaking. I told him and he didn't believe at first. He checked it and he just hugged me tightly. He was crying and I was crying too. It was a big achievement for me. And soon after a while I found , I was getting wet on my face. Then i woke up from my dream right in middle night. I understood, it wasn't true but i could really try my best and i started to search upon google . And similarly, i found a website . I arranged my poems and wrote my first ever story that i am representing on my author dashboard today. I don't know how well I have written but I know I have well expressed my feelings. I understand the most important fact of life that I never really tried to accomplish this dream of mine. I have written dozen of stories and hundreds of poems before I reached my 14th and yet I never really knew I can achieve so much out of it. Within my dreams , I see everything what I want to because they are the fantasies that I have wanted but in reality , when i am trying to make them all real , i have realised that here is the chance to create them and prove everyone but first of all 'Myself'. I dont know what would the consequences but I have realised my potential.
There's a quote that I made -"LIFE ISSUES ARE LIKE MATHEMATICAL EQUATIONS , YOU CANNOT UNDERSTAND THEM UNTIL YOU SOLVE THEM YOURSELF".
You have to be true and loyal to be yourself. You have teach yourself everything. Even if someone asks you to learn from their mistakes , you need to know that you have to make your own mistakes and have the courage at the same time to learn from them.
For the compliments and achievements you just need to try and there's a different world there...
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