Lost out of nowhere ❤️

It's when you realize that you are weak enough to know you have lost ,
Is the moment you understand how important it was to lose this, to realize your weakness, to understand failure, to accept it as a part, to learn to move on with the loss.

I was 17 till then, it's a sunny day when usually Ac, a cooler or a fan is the only wish to be with as it gets damn hot during Summers in India right!!?

It was a normal school day where no buddy is interested to go actually but needs to so was my case.

I am an artistic person form the very beginning and was never interested but always been pushed to a science school and was born engineer for me father, well that's normal in Indiana societies you know!!

It was boring place for me in all senses as I was not a maths person, frustrated even with a bit of physics and just can't handle any of the equation of my life so of course what chemistry could I go with but It was a school where I need to go regular and study of course for at least pass me exams and so I did.

It was never interesting for me to move their anytime and that was me thought for always but then a boring sunny day again a little frustrated me and this person I just saw was making me more angry by his not so normal look to me and I just got to him and of course got up a fight for getting all my frustration out there.

Of course it was over reaction as of then but then just after a sorry next day with some hesitation on face was enough for him to forgive me, which at some point was a little wired for me but then was going normal.

He was such a terrible person to be with without laughing all time and at some point of time I was happy enough those days to get stressed about anything else in my life.

I used to be a person who can never start a conversation and he was one who could never take it end, and made a real good combo for our friendship to start.

But then it was getting worse, guess why?

At this point of time a person who was bored of science who was not a bit interested in schools regularly was now regular with a great smile on face, here and now was the time where HE became the reason for me to be a school person a regular schooling student and that was the worst part.

It happened a very sudden that he said he is leaving.

Yup just leaving everything in a second.

He left the school left his place and just lost somewhere I could not even talk to him any more.

I was lonely all of a sudden.

Nothing was there for me to full fill his absence.

It was all of him in life that made me happy at that point and that happiness just lost.

This was where I felt I have lost.

I'm weak like nothing else can make me but he did.

"It's when you realize that you are weak enough to know you have lost ,
Is the moment you understand how important it was to lose this, to realize your weakness, to understand failure, to accept it as a part, to learn to move on with the loss."

It felt like a failure at that moment and I was so anxious to know his whereabouts to talk to him to ask him for this runaway and to let him know what I was feeling back then.

But nothing could be done. Nothing was that could make me realize that i do have a life except that one person. It was him and only him and I was not able understand why? Why was I so depending on a person whom I just met on my way to home a certain day? Why would it just matter that much to me?

But then it all went aside after a while.

I had my exams in days and now I had no option but to get out of him, to focus on my boards and to stop behaving as I have nothing left with me as had lost just a 0.001% of my life.

It start being Normal after days back as I had exams on my head and got busy with the stuff.

But that was just a way out to escape from the reality is what I think now. Do you think it was fair to run from the reality? Or to accept it?

Still their are a bunch of questions not been answered as the biggest question lies down is where's the person himself who should be answering them all!?