Dear papa

This is a poem I have written for all the strong men out there who give their everything and try their damndest to make sure that everyone is safe. My father is a very worrisome man. Being a girl, he worries a lot about me. He doesn't want me to struggle in life like him but I have my own dreams. When you're doing something you love you don't care about the money. you chase your dreams and the money follows. I really wish for my father to achieve his dreams towards which he's been working for almost 10 years now. I certainly have his dreams and ambitions. I want to be something big. I don't want to settle for mediocrity. He's been an amazing person. Really. He handles household chores, handles my mother's crazy work let downs, gives advice which we all ignore but I feel really bad about that because as I say in the poem no one seems to listen to his bleeding heart, handles my brother's early teen emotions, handles my crazy teen emotions, handles his siblings, his mother and works at his business all at the same time.It must be so tiring to be him and I appreciate him so so so much. But there's no one to listen to all that he goes through. He keeps all his emotions bottled up. And no wonder why. No one listens to him. He's so full of wisdom but I think he's too full of himself because I just am always in a bad mood. I think about the future too much and forget to live with him in the present. Everyone dumps their emotions on him but no one listens to him. He's always doing his best and when he asks for help I always turn the other way because I'm too lazy to work for even 10 minutes in the kitchen with him. My ego is too big and almost whatever he says I take it in the wrong way and hurt the both of us. I wish to be better than this and with him and undo whatever wring I have done just like all of us. It's not easy at all. After all being lazy is just so much easier than being better. But I will try and I will be better. For him and for all the hardworking fathers out there.

It's been a while since I met you

feels like a lifetime of trust and friendship has been bled in

just a few short of years of my existence

don't feel like I appreciate you

even though you were a support sent from heaven

you go through so much

my tantrums and our fights

feel so small compared to your plight

I love you so much

don't feel like I say it often such

dear papa,

always going around helping others

taking care of everyone around you

you don't have to carry the weight of everyone on your shoulders

there's too much for one man to bear

handling mumma's tide of emotions

bearing my brother's ever changing notions

carrying out what you think is owed

to everyone but yourself you love

I know and I believe that you'll succeed

I don't say it much but I have faith

your hard working ways

will give you what you dreamed of

doesn't matter if they don't believe

I know that you'll achieve

what you set out to do.

You're a strong man

but I wish I'd listen to your emotions more

too busy crying for myself

I owe it to you

to be there and comfort you.

I just hope you know

I do love you more

I don't wish to dissapoint you

I have my own dreams and virtues

you just wish for me to succeed

but I don't want the same things you do

I guess we really are the same

but I hope you can see

I don't wish to disrespect you

no one listens to your heart bleeding

everyone puts their burdens on you

I just want you to know

how much I appreciate you

but I'll have to go my way

even if you have no say

I just want to try

even though it makes my cry

you are the glue to our family

I wish and pray for you to succeed

I've been selfish I know

but I can't let my feelings go

more than anything I wish

for you to succeed

so know that always

dear papa,

I'll be there just a call away

even though it feels like I'm a lifetime away

I know I'll go my own way

trying to find my own destiny

I know I'll make mistakes

and I just hope that you'll lend me your shoulder to cry on

I have hurt you more times than I can count

always saying and doing whatever I want

I don't mean to cause you grief

If I have to I'll repent for all my sins

I'll gladly do so without any whims

I just really want you to know

that I regret every foul thing from my mouth

I know that not every time I was wrong

but carrying this burden is no easy task

I should go easy on you

because it's cruel of me

to give half of me

and ecpect everything from you

I know we don't have a relationship like in the movies

but still a lot has been said for us to stray apart

I love you more than words can say

I am thankful and greatful and everyday I pray

that you stay the same and never change your clay

you are bold and make me smile

angry yes but so very kind

I'm lucky to have you as my father

I don't know what I would do with another

I wish you could see

dear papa,

how much you mean to me.

But dear papa,

I'll carry on with my dreams

because even though I aspire to be better

I'm still a selfish human being

I wish I could follow whatever you say

and be better for you in every way

I don't want to be whatever you set out for me

because I dream of being a better me

I admire your hard work and dedication

something I'm glad you passed onto me

and even though I wish to be better

It'll take a lot of time

before we actually see each other

for what we truly are

I hope dear papa,

that one day we'll see each other

remove our glasses

and take a sip of tea

enjoy that what we're meant to be

we will eventually be.