MY LIFE MY RULES

To all the readers over there;I’m not a professional writer.But I’m writing this book for all those who got demotivated because of our society,cannot do a work you want or your disability what I’ve faced in this 13 years of my life.

About me:I am HRITTIKA SHOME.I am from kolkata studying in a reputed school named ‘ NAVA NALANDA’.My age is not that mature to write a book on this things(I know).But you can say that I am writing this to share my experience that had happened in my life.Now readers I want you people to judge this book.I’m not gonna do that.Please don’t quit reading thinking that,”HOW CAN THIS BE ABLE TO WRITE ABOUT SUCH A TOPIC!”If you like to read one page also then please read.

Let’s come to the topic about which I’m gonna write.My life was going as normal as every children of my age until lockdown started.The starting of lockdown was so boring and many were depressed after hearing the news of so many deaths and the increase level of covid waves after waves.Actually I live in an apartment with only my mother.My father lives outstation for his business.That depressed me more as when my friends used to call me,all were sharing how they were enjoying with their parents grandparents by playing indoor games or by gathering some new experience from them.Because I living with my mother only she was the only person with whom I could share my happiness,sadness,my mental condition everything.But you know there was a place empty in my heart for my’papa’.I used to miss him very much,on the other hand my mother was also giving me as much company as she can so that I don’t feel sad by thinking always about ‘him’.From then on my mother became my bestfriend.I came to know about the ups and downs which my mother had overcome on her own and got motivated too.

All were going normal with my mother until 16th August,2021.This is the most unpleasant and somewhat dangerous experience of my life till date.At around 12:37 in the night I got fainted in the washroom.My mother literally got puzzled.She was shouting to call everyone of our apartment.as it was late night only our next door’s neighbours could hear her.They came running and took me out of the washroom.My mother was continuously trying to bring me back in my consciousness but all ways failed.But I woke up on my own after 2 or3 hours(approx.)According to my mother I was unable to recognize anyone.Even not my ‘Bestfriend’.I was sobbing and shievering.After at least 50 minutes after the entire situation I can recognize everyone.Even I was not able to talk properly.I was talkikg like a baby of 2 yrs!but my mom got no support from our family members or any friends.she got support from our neighbours.They wre always very helpful.My mother had handeled the entire situation alone.No one was tehre to help her . On the next morning I was immediately taken to a nearby physician after that fateful night. He told that nothing had happen sometimes people get unconscious due to sudden high or low blood pressure.However my mother was unsatisfied and became more worried.So my father came to Kolkata and took me to a reputed neurologist.After listening to my problem he suggested some tests,EEG and MRI.After seeing my test’s results he told that I have a disease called “seizure disorder” and recommended me some neuro medicines of 500 power each day both day and night.As you know I was getting healthy day by day because of taking 1000 power neuro medicines daily!

All was okay from then on.Then another huge storm came in my life.In December’2021 I again got fainted while sitting in chair .After getting fainted for many days regularly. My parents again took me to my Neurologist.He suggested a spray medicine to spray it in my nose when required.But it was found that the spray was of no work. Lastly my parents decided to take me another neurologist.He also had suggested to do some tests.but these time they were psychological tests.After he got the results of those tests he told my parents that I don’t have any neurological disorder.I have a physological disorder. All used to blame my mom because of my condition.As I used to rank in my school,due to putting pressure on me I got sick.Byt this is entirely wrong.During teh early lockdown period a severe clash took place between my parents.The clash even reached Divorce.But my mom don’t want that.But papa wanted to get separate.The effect of their clash effected me as I always thought that why I cannot solve their problem?. Obviously after knowing about my disorder I got more upset.’Papa’ had to go outstation for his work.Again me and my mom were left alone in our house.But my mom never became broken.She always told me to be more and more strong.

After a few days I can observe that my friends were avoiding me.Suppose,if they are playing after seeing me they would ran away.Even in school my friends did not wanna include me in their gossip or some disscussion regarding studies.I was feeling very lonely.but from then I decided to move forward without thinking of any negativities I have faced or going around me.I again started studying and oh! I haven’t told you about my hobby.My hobby is singing,I love to sing since I was 2 and a half years old.I am also learning singing under my ‘guruji’,Sri Sourav Mukhopadhyay.At that situation I went to give the examination of singing,4th year.I sang a classical raag “Purabi” and a bengali song “Dhire Samire” and stood 2nd.

Since then I took singing as one of my favourite hobby.At present I’m in my 5th year in my singing school and I am fully stable.

I can mow understand the value of singing.I can say that music is the best therapy of life.No medication is required as I was not taking any medicine.My mom stoppped all my medicines,she became my doctor and literally I am and was living without any medicine and fully dependent on music.I love writing too.So I write whatever my hands want to.on the other hand I was not able to give my first Unit Test of my school due to my severe condition.But now I am preparing myself and also givibg my best to give my Unit 2 exam.

So I wanna say that don’t be upset because of your disability,don’t listen to what the society say or how they behave as many had told my parents that I would’nt be able to do anything and cannot study again.But I proved them wrong and had done what I’m capable of doing.So dear readers do what you want.Don’t stop,don’t overthink.”JUST DO IT” and show ‘them’ what you can do.You arte not disable.You are only like normal persons around you,but without any negative thought.That’s all for today again someday more about me.

Bye bye....

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PS:ALL INFORMATION IS TAKEN FROM MY MOTHER.AS I CANNOT REMEMBER ANYTHING REGARDING THOSE DISEASE.