Walking Away from a dream.

There are days when I feel that I am disappearing slowly and fear that nobody will notice the vacant space or nobody will be bothered by my absence as if I was never there. I feel difficulty connecting with the world around me, nothing they say makes sense to me and nothing I say reaches them. I wonder how I reached this place where I feel lost in a world which doesn't belongs to me. I feel trapped in a timeless loop of an unending search for my place in this vast illusion of life, looking tirelessly for that other peice of my soul in every face around me. I just can't give it up, not yet, not ever. I hear people saying that there is no hope for love in this world and I feel more determined to find love. I can almost fèel it in my bones, your warm embrace melting all the frozen feelings inside me.The pain and longing in my heart sometimes get unbearable and I suffer from ocassional bouts of hopelessness, but I beleive that in this world of thousand possibilities, my dreams of an impossible love is very much possible. I don't know, how to say it without sounding silly but, I have loved you even before I met you and alsthough sometimes I doubt my beleif in your existence, yet, I tell myslf that my beleif in you is a lot like beleiving in God, just because I haven't sèen you yet doesn't mean that you don't exist. I am writing you this letter in hopes that it will find you one day and if i am lucky, you will find me one day.In love with you, Amrita.

Nachiket was spellbound, It is the third time, he was reading this letter and it was beyond his comprehension to understand the depth of Amrita's hope, passion and faith. He was also wondering that how on earth this letter reached him from nowhere. Nachiket was cleaning the old book cupboard as he was sorting out stuff which belonged to her ex-live in girlfriend Garima and this letter fell out from an old book. He picked the book and saw inside, it was an old book with rugged corners and had a stamp of local library. The book was due to be returned in two days. In her hurry to moveout, Garima must have forgotton to return the book, he thought. Nachiket was missing Garima already but he was little releived too because it was a mutual decision to call quits and no harsh emotions were involved. In Garima's words, their individual need for marked territories leaves no space for a lifelong relationship sustained by love. She knww that there was a vacant space in his heart which was locked and no matter with whom he was, this vacant space in his heart was never occupied. Nachiket was often at los of words when confronted about his feelings, yet he was intrigued by this letter as if some deep cord within was touched and he suddenly wanted to see Amrita to know, if a person like her really existed. Her faith in finding her soulmate was so touchingly insane that he found himself standing outside the library with that book and the letter. With great efforts he was able to attain name and address of all the people who previously took that book, but Amrita was not there in the list. He was suddenly determined to find her and after many hiccups, he finally found Amrita in the least expected way......(to be continued).