i hate being me

I am not crazy..i know what i want..damn me..that i worked according to you till now..i know what you are saying is right. .But not right for me....i know what makes me happy...what i want and no one else...dont tell me i am misbehaving..because just i know how much i have changed myself to be the part of this family..i am me no more...and i hate myself being me...may be i should'nt have changed..may be the present might be better...well atleast better than this.

What do you expect from me..i just dont want to settle down the way you want me to...i dont want my life in routine..i have never achived anything in my life..i want to be free.

I just hope. .what so ever os killing me inside...never come out because.i dont know how long i can keep it tobme...i just hope i dont hurt anyonewith the lava...buring inside of me...