One Sided Love: A Love Without A Name

Everyone talks about successful love. The passionate, committed, and ceaseless love stories. But what about those who failed in love, the love that was one sided, as the youngsters call it 'Friend zoned'? They also had love and affection but were rejected, not by the family but by the loved one.

It's a story, of that genuine effort, that genuine feeling, and that innocent love.

4 Years Ago….

In my college days, Facebook was perhaps the best thing for pastime. One day I was scrolling the news feed, and guess what, A girl in a blue saree appeared on my screen. "Damn, she is beautiful". Her open hair was over her shoulder and her golden earrings looked amazing. She was sitting on the stairs with a good scenic beauty. For the next five minutes, I Perhaps had Philo-lovia (Opposite of philophobia). That's not even a word in the dictionary!!!

First of all, I waited for the next 7 days to not be in that wave of first messages of random persons who will text her after that photo. Usually, the girl gets most messages immediately after uploading a good photo. So, After a week I texted her on Facebook with "Hello". Guess what she Replied… OMG!!!

And from here the story begins.

We started talking and within a few months and we were friends. We were not best friends but we were on the path to being that. We talked as if we were good friends. Our talks were on the different aspects of life, to academics, and all other. After around 8 months I gained her trust and she gave me her number.

After that, I called her, and her voice was filled with cuteness. Some voices have really the quality to melt one's heart. A jolly, beautiful heart with a cute face and smile. She was very understanding, and one of the things was that I felt good after talking to her. There is someone with whom you share all your thoughts and you feel relaxed, she was that person. We were like good friends. We called each other some time and talked about the day.

For the next year, we became good friends. But at that time some disaster happened, she told me that she has just gotten into a new relationship. Believe me, It's heartbreaking to hear that. The person you like but are afraid to tell about your feelings because it can create a mishap. But somehow I tried to cope and become really a good friend, perhaps one of the best friends, whom she can rely on. I never said my feelings to her, but perhaps she knew… or not… I don't know.

After 2 years we went to several places specifically the sea coast to see the sunset. In Mumbai, The sunsets are amazing. We sat on the benches to eat snacks. Even we had ice-creams together and enjoyed the view of the night sky along the coastline. We had beautiful memories together. Perhaps the best memories, but they were as a friend, not more than that.

Sometimes, People fade away, but the memories never, that's why we perhaps link certain places, food, and smells with a particular memory. When we see that place, we remember the good old times, that we spent.

After 1 year of suppressing my feelings, The time came when I couldn't hold my emotions to her, And one day, that point came when I confessed to her. Sometimes you place something that the person couldn't take, the stakes are high. I threw a dilemma at her, and frankly, she neither expected nor was prepared for anything like that. She replied back, "I am in a relationship. How can I be with you… Try to understand…". As she understood my emotional state, She tried to make me understand, But in the back of my mind, I also know, what she can do? Or what else she can do? A person to whom she always looked like a friend, and now that person tells all this. It became a complicated situation.

Guess… What happened next?

When there is any crack in a relationship, whether it's a love relationship or a friendship, It Breaks with time. The texts slow down, the calls become less, and day after day we become unknown once again. The Story that started with an affection, ended with a rejection. I didn't know how she felt that day, but that day I lost a good friend, perhaps the best one.

People don't talk about the unsuccessful love stories, the failed love. The movies depict the one-sided love stories as the most beautiful one, but the reality is that It always comes with attached pain. I don't know whether it can be called love or affection or by any other name but it has an emotional value, a value to that person who felt that.

Is "love" called when the two people love each other or does it applies it to a person who loves another person who doesn't love him back? Then, what it will be called a failed love or a true love that doesn't find its way to the end?