Love needs no words.....

Love needs no wordsPresenting you with a love story,written by me but expressed by a guy who loves a girl deeply..Read to know more............Chapter-17 may 20134'o clock in the morning (Phone ringing...."and dancing away with my heart".....)I picked up the phone unconsciously and unknown to what was in store for Me.Me:Heeelloooo....Aiz:Hi Akash! This is Me.Aisleen..Remember..Ur collegemate..Me:Aisleen..? (Thinking if its only another dream) Aisleen from J.P Uni?? Aiz:Yup!!This is Me....Me:Ohh,hi,how are you?(waking up in surprise)Aiz:I am good.See i know i already startled you by calling up so early in the morning.But i called you yesterday evening and you didn't pick up.So i just couldn't help myself waiting till today.Really sorry for that.Me:Oh no!That's Ok! Is everything alright?Aiz:Ya,don't worry..Just wanted to meet you once.Can we meet somewhere as early as possible!Me:Ya sure! But where are you? Jalandhar??Aiz:I am already in Chandigarh.I am here for a month.You tell me whenever you are free and also tell me the place.Me:(Thinking...) I'll be free by 12 today.Then lets meet after that. C.C.D is fine for you?Aiz:Yup! I'll be waiting.Now go to sleep,i already wasted your 8 minutes.(giggling..)Me:(Smiling)Hmm..See you then.Aiz: Good night! Cya!I never went to sleep that day.I was so surprised.A girl who was so shy in her college days,a girl who never went out alone with a guy even if he was just his friend,a girl who was not in touch with me after the college ended,which was precisely 5 years back suddenly asks me to go out with her and that also by calling up at 4 in the morning.Shocking.I even thought that this might be some kind of prank by my college friends.But what if it wasn't?What's up with that girl that she wants to meet me so desparately.With these thoughts in mind for the whole day,I finished my work.15 more minutes to 12 when I got a text from Aiz reading-"Hi! I am already here for like half an hour :)Waiting for you and having my second cup of coffee ;) Come soon :)"This was getting even more strange. It was completely a different girl. Not the one I knew in college. I rushed towards the parking,and in about 10 minutes I managed to reach the Meeting spot.Its actually true that a lot can happen over coffee.. FIRST MEETINGWell,i entered the coffee shop in my formals as if i had come for some business meeting.I was so anxious to know the whole story behind this meeting,but when i saw her i had no other word than "stunning".Her black dress with a light silver neckpiece made her look so elegant.Her beautiful brown eyes covered with thick eyelashes and a thin lining of Kajal,which always have been a beauty to admire for me in college days,today looked as if they wish to express something. We greeted with a formal handshake ofcourse.And the rest went like this-Aiz-Thank you for saving me from another cup of coffee..(Giggling)Me-(laughing even harder) Oh no problems.. So How are you? How have been these years? What are you doing these days?? (In a single breath)Aiz-Whoah whoah! Slow down Mr.Koffee with Akash..Its not a rapid fire round..ok..F.Y.I am working as a head of the creative writing team for the esteemed magazine "The Vow" (grinning..) and that also in my hometown Jalandhar..What about you?Me-Still now working in the M.N.C. Then why did you decide to pursue career in writing after doing b.tech from here?Aiz-I very casually submitted a story written by me..It was selected..and i went for the interview and i found this job is more of my type..So hows your job going? Did you find someone?Me-Haha..Jobs' great but i am not seeing any girl currently..Aiz-Oooh..currently haan..seems like you change your girlfriends frequently..Me-Hmm..you are right..i think theres nothing like true love or something..its just a time pass..so when you cant change the girl,change the girl..haha..Anyways! you tell......How..Aiz-Still single..Me-Well i was asking how did this shy girl turned into a bold one asking me to have coffee with her?Aiz-Oh that! Actually one day i was just reflecting my college days and i realised that i hurt you at that time..So its probably a kind of Sorry coffee date..i know its wierd but i really am sorry..Me-God really..you really dont have to do this..Aiz-I was in Chandigarh so i thought why not meet you..C'mon i didn't come specially for this..haha.. Me-Haa..So hows this chulbuli girl still single?Aiz-Couldnt find someone of my type..But now my parents have found a guy for me..they are gonna fix my wedding with him once he comes back to India..I dont know him very much...Me-So you want to wait for the right guy found by you?Aiz-No i will marry him..He is a nice guy..i have talked to him..But my problem is that i wanted a boyfriend first..Not a fiancee..With whom i can have rides,go for a movie,exchange gifts,enjoy the college kind romance where you dont have to ask for your parents' permission every time coz they know nothing about it..Me-But now you will have to marry him as per your parents choice..Aiz-Hmm..Hey what if i find a guy whom i can date for a month..infact why not you..(In a shock! How can this girl be the one to whom i proposed in college??)Aiz-I know its quite awkward for you after the college thing but i really think you are the perfect choice to hang out with..you dont take relationships seriously so this would be another time pass for you and for me too..what say?(Still had no words)Aiz-Ok..i think i will have to propose you officially to make it more effective..Mr. Akashdeep Singh,here is a cute girl Aisleen kaur asking to dedicate her a very very very small part of your life..hardly a month to her..So that she can overcome the wedding blues and do the things she wanted..don't you think i deserve a chance??(Went into the past when i asked her this same question and probably she caught me) Aiz-I know i hurt you then but i am really sorry for that and i promise i will cover up for all the damage i did to you..Please say yes..Ok you can take your time to think..just let me know when you decide it..(Speechless) Ok atleast say something..you want to reject even then its fine..you have complete right to reject me after i did it to you..Finally Me-Okay,i will tell you when i decide..now i am going for a meeting with a client..Aiz-Oh..then decide it fast right..I dont have time.. Chapter-2She couldn't understand..and she never can..It was not the time which was the worry for me..It was myself..How i wish if i could ever tell her...........................Flashback......5 years back...J.P. University..Chandigarh..Farewell day..everybody's dancing to the D.J.Me-Aizzzzz.....Would you like to dance with me?Aiz-Ofcourse Akash..Dancing on a slow song..I couldn't get my eyes off her..Her white gown,shining eyes and sweet smile mesmerized me..I dont know what happened to me but my feelings took a road i never ought to take..because i knew if i would tell her,i would lose a very nice friend of mine..But alas! I did it..Me-Aizzz..I will miss you..Really...I have never had a friend like you..You understand me so well..and you are always there to help me..Thank you..(Stopped dancing)Aiz-Akash you are also a really good friend of mine..Dont worry we will be in touch..Me-No Aiz..I dont want to miss this friend ever..everAiz was in a complete shock..She just asked me if i am drunk..Me-No am not drunk..Ok i guess i need to do it officially..to make it look more real..(wide opening his arms.......)Ms.Aisleen kaur,here is a handsome guy Akashdeep Singh asking you to let him share every moment of his life with you..don't you think he deserves a chance?Aiz-Akash enough of it yaar..are you kidding? We are good friends but i don't want this stuff to come between us..you are not serious right?Me-Yeah..I was just wondering if this can be an option..but no problems..really..And this was the biggest lie i ever told to someone..I did this to atleast save my friendship with her but rather i did a major damage to myself..Aiz-Okay so i was an option for you..first time in my life i found a guy to whom i could look upto as a good friend..I always thought that you are the only guy who would never propose me and will always be my friend..but you took me as an option..All guys are the same..Every girl in their life is another option..Mr.Akashdeep Singh Go find your another option..Because this option is not interested..Me-You are getting me wrong Aiz..Aiz-Dont call me Aiz and dont ever try to talk to me again..Its a request..I hurt her and myself too..I wish i could go back in time and delete those 2 minutes out of my life..I wonder why she thought that i would not propose her..I mean anybody can fall for a girl like her then why cannot I..Was there a problem in me..After this i went to Bangalore for my job..Unable to find the reason..I was getting frustrated day by day..I never called her back or even texted her..She didn't want me to talk to her and i was hoping she would realise she hurt me..but she never did..I tried to get over her..dated a girl in my office..but very soon i left her..and after that the list of my girlfriends went on and on and on..But somewhere deep inside i never got over her..we were so good friends.. i could feel a connection..i told her eveything..my life,my parents,my wishes..may be that was the problem..she never told me her deepest feelings..may be i wasn't even that good friend of hers..in that "may be" i spent my 5 years..and suddenly when i think i am done with her,she appears out of nowhere and asks me to date her and that also as a time pass..I knew what i was doing was wrong..i am going to hurt myself in the end but i couldn't stop myself..I was not over her yet and i wanted this chance to just be with her no matter how much it will hurt me later..Deciding this i called her to tell my answer..quite awkward ofcourse..Imagine a girl proposed a guy and he took time to think..Ironic.. Chapter-3 MY YES AND OUR FIRST DATE/DISCUSSION Me-Hey Aiz..I have thought a lot..I think you deserve a chance to enjoy the freedom of your life..and if i can help you with that,then why not!Aiz-Eeeeeeeeee.....yessssss...i knew it..(dancing)Now i want you to meet me because i want to discuss how its gonna happen..Me-We are just dating..whats there to discuss in that?Aiz-See i need to clear a few things..so just make a plan to meet me..Me-Ok jaanu ji..as u say..Aiz-We really need to talk dude..And then it was our first date..she looked amazing..and after the date,which was not as such a date,i found out she was so different from other girls i have dated yet..When i saw her i was expecting that she would greet me with a different smile than the usual..but it was nothing like that..she met me with a casual hand shake and we sat down to "discuss".....Aiz-So,let me tell you first of all...I am not your girlfriend..We will be just hanging around..you wont ever call me jaanu puchhu or anything like that..no use of ji's and aap's...i hate it..Moreover we are not serious so why put this stuff in our relation..Me-Ok done!Aiz-And no touching or something like that..we can share anything we want to about our lives..anything at anytime..our relation will be equivalent to best buddies..ok?Me-Ok done buddy..as u say.. Then it was the best time i ever had..we went out for lunch,coffee,dinner... sometimes we bunked our daily routine and went for a movie..We discussed every moment of our life..Our likes and dislikes which never matched..and in the end we agreed that its a personal opinion,lets leave it..one of those incidences i remember is when i told her that i love chocolates which i usually dont mention anywhere because guys usually dont like it much..and she instead of laughing said that its cool but she didn't like it though..i loved her for that she never judged me for anything and accepted me the way i am..she never asked for any gifts and never allowed me to pay for the date alone..we shared equal parts and she said that we both are working then why only i would pay..Then i used to say that its fine now but when we will get married,i will pay..Whenever i used to talk about wedding she always used to get pale and changed the topic..It was like she wanted to run away from her wedding but she can't due to her parents..and then if i insisted to talk,she would say that she was not serious for me and neither was i so why discuss about such a serious topic.. With time things changed..She used to call me 'Akash' in college but now i was his Akki and she was my Aizi..She now used to instruct me what to wear,when to sleep and took care of my every little carelessness..but it was sweet..I was now used to this care and affection..It was all real for me when one day------ Chapter-4 Sitting by the side of a lake..She never allowed me to hold her hand even..although i tried many times..sometimes just to irritate her and sometimes because i felt to hold her so that i can't let her go anywhere..and we never ever sat quite close to each other..but it was never a matter for me..she was with me that was enough for me..Aiz-Akki..My parents are going to Delhi tomorrow to meet the guy i told you..They are soon going to fix this wedding..After 5 days they will come back with this guy..so we wont ever meet again..deal?A deal like this could kill me..I had those 5 days left to be spent with her and i had so many things i wanted to do with her..I even didn't tell her that I was so serious for her from the very beginning..I decided this is the time to tell her how much i have always loved her..But what if she still doesn't feel the same for me..I would lose the 5 days even..I thought--I will tell her on the last day..If she says yes and feels the same i would approach her parents and talk with them..When she told me about this i could feel the sadness in her eyes too..she was definitely not happy with the upcomings..but i was not sure if she loved me the way i did..i tried to hide my feelings but now it was high time..may be she was thinking that i am not serious for her and that is why she was also hiding her love for me..i definitely didn't want to live in another 'may be' of my life..Those 4 days we did whatever she wanted and wherever she wanted to go..I canceled all my meetings so that i can spend my whole day with her on the last day.. Chapter-5 16 JUNE,THE LAST DAY12:00 A.MI called her..Me-Hey dear..its the last day of our relation and i want to spend my whole day with you..i have cancelled all my appointments with the clients and i just want this day to be dedicated to you and me..Aiz-Why are you getting so serious?? C'mon we were just best buddies right?Me-Ya right..So dont i deserve a last day with my best buddy..a farewell..Aiz-Ok buddy we will meet..And then we talked for like hours on the phone and she slept talking to me..it actually didn't hurt me because it was good as i could feel her..even when she was asleep..Then in the morning i got dressed up..wearing her favourite shirt..we decided to meet at the same cafe we first met a month ago..To my surprise she wore the dress that i loved her in..She looked stunning..I complemented her and she smiled..First time i saw a fake smile on her face..it was killing me..she looked pale as if she cried the whole night..I asked her what was it but she said she couldn't sleep properly at night due to some disturbances nearby her home..i wanted her smile back and probably this was the time to get it back..I took out a small coin with Guru Nanak Dev Ji encraved on it and gifted her..she usually didn't take any gift from me but this time she couldn't refuse..I said it was our last meeting so she can take it as a token of remembrance..Then i took out a diamond ring out of a small red box and asked her-------Me-See this ring..Did you like it?Aiz-What are you doing Akki??Me- Trying to get back that smile which came over your face whenever you saw me..I know you love me..and you dont want to marry that guy..but you are afraid..I always forget to do it officially..so here i go..Aiz-Don't...Me-Ms.Aisleen kaur,here is a handsome guy Akashdeep Singh requesting you.....Please marry me?? (having my fingers crossed)Aiz-But i don't love you..............................then she holded my hands,for the first time..Aiz-I don't love you and i want to marry that guy seriously..I loved the days we spent together..My heartiest thank you for giving me those memorable days..but as i told you nothing more than that my best buddy..we can never meet again now..we have to become strangers..dont ever try to get in touch with me now,it will only give pain..I couldn't control my pain and it flowed out from my eyes..Ghosh it was the last chance to get her but i really couldn't..Me-Probably i am not the perfect guy for you..but i can make our life perfect..(crying)Aiz-Noooo...don't ever say that..you are the best guy i have ever met..and you will get a girl even better than me..you deserve a perfect girl but alas nobody's perfect so you will have to compromise..(giggling...) I need to go now..My mom dad must be arriving anytime at the airport so i need to rush..I wish all the happiness for you..keep smiling..and live every moment of your life to the fullest..She hugged me and kissed me on the cheek and whispered "good bye,take care the perfect guy" in my ear...I was numb..i didn't know how to stop her..i had so many questions..but i was unable to feel anything and think of something..its only when she left the place i realised we are never going to meet in future..she told me not to contact her but it was enough of it..i wanted the answer of her rejection if she considered me such a good guy..these girls are always confusing..they say something else and do something else..I immediately reached the parking area but couldn't find her..then i rushed to my car to drive to the airport..I didn't care if his parents and to-be fiancee see me because i wanted the answer..deep inside i believed that she loved me..then i searched for her for hours but couldn't find her..There was only a single airport in Chandigarh,where could she have gone..i tried calling her many times but she didn't pick up..i was getting restless now..i lost her..i didn't even know her address so that i can approach her..After searching for her randomly on roads i returned back to home at midnight..and that day i cried badly.. Chapter-6 THE AWAKENING It was 9 in the morning when my mom wake me up and told me that i got some parcel..she didn't have to do much effort because i was just lying down..i couldnt resist myself from opening it..and what i found, was definitely a shock for me...It was from Aiz..It wasn't something really different but it changed my perspective of all the events that happened in the previous month..so it was an awakening for me..I found a watch and a dairy..with a letter inside the dairy..it read------Dear Akki,By the time you will read this letter,i would be away from you..Far away..but it seems as if leaving you behind is making me more and more closer to you..Thats the irony of life,you want someone but you can't get him..and what you don't want,you will have to accept that..Well Akash,there was no perfect gift for you than this dairy..i never thought i will gift it to somebody but fortunately i found you..There is a purpose behind this..I hope i am doing justice to you and you would understand it..Enjoy reading..Only yoursAiziI was confused now...Should i go back to find her or should i read this dairy..I dont know why but there was something in this letter that made me stick to read this dairy..May be it was my quest for the answer to my rejection and my hope that i would find it in this dairy..I went on to read this dairy without having breakfast although my mom forced me to have it..I didn't feel like having it..I nut bolted my door and opened the first page of the book..she had not written this book routinely..it comprised only important moments of her life and here i go---- Chapter-7 THE FIRST PAGE22 October,2008Hey Boyfriend..It's my birthday today..Your girlfriend is getting 20 years old,where are you? haha..well you have been missing 20 years of my life..I am in college now and i see most girls committed to someone..Its a shock for others if i say i dont have a boyfriend yet..I mean c'mon you don't have a boyfriend because you are in college..Its a matter of heart and you can never trust it..I am going to write about my life's important incidences which you should know when you will come into my life..So this dairy is only for you my dear..see i am so caring about you already..5 December,2008May be i have found you..*Pulkit*I caught you looking at me today..and then walking with me till library just to ask me how i was,was really sweet..You know what,you have an awesome smile with those dimples which i wanted in my partner..your dressing sense is superb..i can't stop myself looking at you through the corner of my eye..13 December,2008I helped you through your project and now we are good friends..I know you like me..I can see it through your actions and the way you care for me..You call me Aiz which everybody else does..but its seems so different when you call me..and i have named you kittu..although you hate this name but i love to irritate you.. and much more blah blah about this guy Pulkit of our college..yeah i was feeling jealous..she never told me she liked that guy..It was a shock for me..It was all before we became friends..she told me that she liked a guy but never told his name...15 January,2009You called me on this Sunday morning and we talked for an hour..It was so good a feeling i can't express..I was blushing..When you asked me to come and meet you,i was at cloud nine..I literally danced with my cellphone in one hand and my mom gave me those stern looks..You have said you want to tell me something and i am hoping this is what i wanted to hear from such a long time..its gonna be my first date..yippieeeee....Now going to get ready..I will look my best for this Day......Will write the details of the day soon..I was wrong..completely wrong..what was i thinking..I am never going to write this dairy again..I dont want anyone in my life..Good bye dairy..i wondered why she left writing the dairy...a few pages later she wrote..This part of the dairy i am writing for you Akash..I never had enough guts to write about it but yeah i want you to know everything that happened that day so here i go--That day when i met him---Pulkit-Hello ji,you don't know how much difficult it was for me to wait for even 5 minutes..Me-Hey,whats the matter my kittu? Pulkit-Your kittu wants to discuss something really important..and needs your help..Me-Ofcourse,i am always there for you..Pulkit-I am in love Aizi darling..Me-(blushing..)Really,so who is the lucky one? tell me na..her name..Pulkit-I don't know how would you react..I like her from a year..now we have become really good friends..now i want to tell her everything,should i? she won't refuse na?Me-Oh you are such a cute and nice guy,any girl would not reject you..now tell me her name kittu..(Thats it..This was the moment of my life..)Pulkit-Bani...(Did i hear Bani..i was in shock..speechless...)She is a very nice girl..I just want to spend my life with her..I love her so much..She is daughter of my dad's friend..she returned from Australia a year back and since then we have been in touch..I always liked her but when i met you and remember we discussed this topic love and likeness,i realised i actually love her..i wanted to tell you earlier but i was not sure of my feelings..(And when we discussed that topic i was thinking only about you...you idiot..no actually i am an idiot..)Aiz..are you listening??Me-Ya...I am listening..Thats a great news..you should tell her as soon as possible..Go ahead..Pulkit-You are not much happy with the news..I expected that you would jump out of your seat..(smiling...) Me-I am really happy for you..really..you found your love finally..and i helped you realising that..its a true pleasure for me..its just i am a bit tired..Pulkit-Oh you should have told me earlier..you want to go home if you are not feeling well?Me-Well actually..I am sorry but i think i should go..He dropped me home..I didn't enter home though..I wanted to cry hard..i was broken from inside..i was wrong to feel for him..how i couldn't understand his feelings..he always considered me a good friend only..it was all my mistake..(rubbing off tears from my face)I thought i won't ever fall for someone again in my life..i won't let someone come close to me to hurt me again..that was a promise to myself which kept me away from any guy...including you.. Chapter-8 A SHOCKI thought i would never write this dairy again but Akash you gave me a reason to continue writing..you came into my life as a very nice friend..but still i had those walls across me which never let anyone to enter..but then the day after the farewell i started writing this dairy again as a personal dairy... 28 May,2010Akash proposed me..He is definitely a good friend of mine..After Pulkit i see him as a good friend..I feel so free talking to him..but i dont want this stuff between us..i like him..we are like best buddies but i don't want anyone to hurt me..I said no and i am not going to talk to him again..We cannot remain even good friends now..I know i hurt you Akash,i could feel the pain in your eyes..I will miss you too...Idiot,never told me that she missed me..she loved me for sure but was denying it even from herself just because she got hurt earlier..want to kill this stupid girl..Once i find her i am gonna shoot her..i think there will be nothing more to read in this dairy relevant to me..she knows i am not a patient reader..still i would read it for her..10 April,2013 Went through a sudden wild headache and fell down unconsciously in seconds..mom dad took me to the hospital..reports say its brain cancer..It is not an early stage so can't be cured..i am left with 3 months most probably..i don't know what to do..it feels like i have so less time and i want to do much more...I don't regret dying,i knew one day it has to come but i worry most about mom and dad..how would they live..i need to do everything i can for them and then i'll do the stuff i always wanted to do...Why should i take this as a curse on me..God has given me such a beautiful life and i am still left with 3 months,so i will make the most out of it.. Shocked...She has brain cancer..where is she now then..was everything planned..Dumbstruck..........................I think i will find all my answers in this dairy only....6 May,2013 TO DO LISTTransfer all the money from my account to dad's: doneGive my resignation from job: doneBuy a pretty necklace for mom: doneMeet my best friends: doneGo for trekking(without telling at home): doneDrink takilla and vodka: done ;-)Kiss a guy: not doneDate a guy: not doneWrite a story inspired from my life: not done Its actually sad that i haven't dated a guy yet..but i am so smart that i have found out a way..i need a guy who will date me just for fun and i think Akash would be the best option..I have heard he is a typical flirt and won't mind dating me i guess..Well it would be quite awkward but you will have to do it girl if you don't want to die single..I am coming to Chandigarh tomorrow..so beware Akash..haha..7 May,2013He said yes..I knew it...Its so weird but i don't want to die with regrets in my life..i hope i am not doing anything wrong..i will be very clear to him about our hanging out..i promise..I won't let it turn into an intense relation and would try every possible thing so that he stays away and still be with me..I need to clear these things tomorrow with him..8 June,2013Its getting tough for me now..He is a nice guy..It was all clear that we will not be together after a month but i don't know why it seems so tough..I can feel even he wants to continue this relation..I can see it in his eyes that he is so serious for me..He is planning out things to talk to my parents,i am sure he is..but how to tell him that its not possible for me to be with him..Even more worse thing is that i have to act as if i am not serious for him..I wanted to live these months but i guess in order to get what i want,i have stopped being what i actually am..I want to live more to be with him..I want to spend more time with him..but alas,i cannot...This feeling is choking me from inside..11 June,2013I told him that my parents have gone to Delhi and they will come with this imaginary guy to whom i am going to get married according to him..I could see how his smile vanished when i told him..His eyes were filled with that feeling i never intended to give him..I am sorry Akash,i never meant to hurt you but sometimes we have to do things we are not supposed to,because we don't have another option..He wanted to say something but perhaps he was afraid to lose me so he didn't..even i was trying to hide my feelings for him..I was trying to become careless and feelingless..We both were upset but the irony of life is we both could not talk to each other about it for the sake of the other one...How can then i not say that this is true love..it is..i am lucky that i got him.. THE LAST DAY AGAIN16 June,2013You called me at midnight..I was happy when you told me about the cancellation of your meetings just to spend time with me but at the same time i had to act as if i don't care much..We talked for hours about anything and everything,then i realised i am doing wrong..i acted as if i slept..and didn't cut the line..you were there..right there with me even when you knew i was asleep..you didn't cut the line too and we both didn't sleep the whole night..i cried but didn't let you know..The best night one could ever experience..no words but a lot of feelings..not near but still so close..everytime i think of you,i thank My Lord for making me meet this guy and giving me such moments that will be my treasure when i die..I wore your favourite dress but even then i was not looking good as i was not happy and moreover i was going to die,weakness was all around me..I lied at home that i was going to meet the doctor..You complemented me and i tried smiling..I could no more act fake but i had to..I was surprised when you gifted me that coin and i could not refuse taking it..What a perfect gift it was,for i needed Him the most at this point of my life,when i was going to hurt my Akki..my love..You proposed me again..I crossed my fingers and very harshly answered you that i don't love you..Believe me it was more hurting than the pain in my brain..I controlled my tears because i knew if they would come out,they will give you hopes of me returning back..Sorry again my love,i hurt you but it hurts me too.. Chapter-9Akki,right now i am in hospital and i would be taken care of,here for a month..i don't want you to see me in this condition,you will not be able to bear this..I know its a shock for you and perhaps you are feeling cheated but i never meant to hurt you..How much walls you create,how much you try to avoid,love is such a thing that will still enter and you won't be able to escape..I thought i would escape from it but thinking of you,leaving you again in regret made me write this dairy again and i am sending you this so that you can keep my memories..I want a promise from you..A pinky promise..Please don't do what i did a few years back..Shutting down all the doors to your heart would not make me happy..If you want my soul to rest in peace,please marry a nice girl and love her truly..I would be checking out on you dude..And please don't try to find me,i am already looking so ugly and depressed..don't want another tension..haha..One thing i never said to you but it was always understood--- I LOVE YOU Good bye!Take care of yourself!I was full of tears when i closed this dairy..I was feeling so hopeless..I wanted to die too..How can The Almighty do this to her..Then i thought if she can take this so bravely,why am i thinking like this..i will support her and i will find her to see her one last time..She was not picking up my calls since then..I checked the address in the parcel..she is a smart girl and knows me very well..The parcel was sent by her friend from Delhi..But yeah,it gave me hope that she would be somewhere in Delhi...I took a flight to Delhi the very next day and began my search for her..I searched every hospital i could to find her and fortunately i found her on the third day.. Chapter-10Her parents were sitting outside the room..I greeted them and they recognised me although i have never met them..Her mother was crying and she requested me to meet her with a smile..Aisleen wanted this time of her life as normal..I didn't want to depress her so i rubbed off my tears and entered the room with a lot of courage.. Aizi-Akashhhh....Me-Don't...Don't say a word..you have written it all..it's my turn now..See i am not here to see you in this condition..By the way,you look pretty in this too..I am here to tell you Ms.Aisleen,you forgot to do something you mentioned in the dairy..how can you die without completing your to do list? Anyways,i know you don't remember it but i have read every single word with full concentration..so kiss me..Aizi-Whhhhhattttttttt????Me-Don't give me that "i know nothing" looks..You desparately wanted to kiss me..i know girl..it's in your to do list...Aizi-Go away Akash..I am not going to kiss you..This is not the situation for a kiss..Just go away and don't come here again..i don't want you to see me dying..please promise me you won't come again..Me-Okay,i won't but for that you have to kiss me..Aizi-(taking a deep breath)Come here.....and she kissed me on the forehead..then i kissed her..she closed her eyes and tears fell down her cheeks..watching her cry,i could no more control my tears..Again we both didn't have words but we could just feel the racing of hearts,my fear of losing her and her regret of leaving me..I sat beside her till evening,holding her hand and without saying a single word,tears said it all for us,then--Aizi-I think you should go now Akki..Me-I want to stay Aizi..I want to be here with you in every moment of your life..Aizi-Akki,i know it..but i want you to start a new life..This life given by Him is so beautifull and priceless..If you stay here,i know it would be difficult for you to return back to normal..Its a request Akki,please go..go and live your life..Me-Okay,i am going..But promise me you will meet me when i come to see you in heaven..Aizi-I will always be by your side Akki..God bless you..Me-I LOVE YOU..I kissed her hand and left the room with a smile on my face as she wanted..I am back in Chandigarh but my soul is there with her..always thinking of her..I don't call her or even her parents as i promised her but i am going to Jalandhar soon to meet her parents..I want to help them and support them in every possible way..One thing which she wanted was to write a novel on her life but she couldn't write..But Aiz i will write it for you..You will live in my heart forever and ever.............WRITTEN BY-RASHMEET KAUR TOOR (:-P)