Ans she finally said "YES"

I woke up to the sound of my mom calling me. I got up. I was excited. I had just finished with my 12th exams and I was on my way to meet my friends whom I had not met since 5 years so I put on my best clothes and headed on to the meeting place which was ironically my old school. Vivek came first then came apurva. I told them lets go somewhere but they told me that we will be joined by one more person, Vidhi. Vidhi, I remembered her. She was the silent girl who used to keep to herself, didn’t mingle around much. I wondered how she would have turned out now; maybe she was the same silent girl. But I was wrong.

She came walking. Vivek said here she comes. When I saw her, my heart literally skipped a beat. She wasn’t this gorgeous when she was in my class. I mean she was not the model type. She was plain and simple. But there was something about her which accelerated my heartbeat. A raw beauty. Her eyes were so big and beautiful. I noticed her hair. It was long and silky. It fell down below her shoulders like a cascading waterfall. She said hi and I melted. Her voice was so pure. I asked her “do you sing?” she was surprised but then said yes. I sheepishly asked her if she could sing for me. I spoke before thinking and they all burst into laughter. I apologized and we started moving on. We started recollecting old memories and the day went on. With every passing second she was winning over my heart. The day went by so quickly. When we finally decided to get back, I was the first one to ask when we can meet again. I did not care for the reply of the others. I looked at her, she said soon and then we departed. I got back home and then I realized that I had forgotten to ask her number. I kicked myself but there wasn’t anything I could do and life went on.

When we met for the second time, the first thing I did was ask her number. But she told that she doesn’t have a phone. I was so disappointed. Soon we started to have a good time and we lost track of time. It was almost nightfall and we had not realized it. Vidhi saw the time and she freaked out. She asked me my cell so that she could make a call. I gave and she called her sister n told her that she was on her way. While walking to the bus stand I enquired about her sister because I wanted to know if I could reach Vidhi through her sister’s phone. Finally she said the words I was waiting for. She told me that I could reach her on her sister’s number. We reached our homes and I wanted to text her but I did not want to sound desperate. I waited for some time and then with crossed fingers, I texted her. But I did not get a reply. I thought I blew it but almost an hour later I receive a reply. I was over the moon! We started chatting. After some time; she told me she was seeing someone. I was heartbroken. I did not know what to do. All I knew was I had a huge crush on her. But I did not want her to go out of my life. So I let myself be friendzoned. We became close and soon we were sharing everything. Much to my regret her relationship with that guy was solid. I reassured myself by thinking that if she is happy then I am happy.

Time flew quickly and then it was time to go for a degree college. For some reason both of us ended up in the same college. Once college started we became inseparable. I could see that the long distance relationship was not working for her. She was trying her best but it just wasn’t working. When she told me this, the first thing that came to my mind was to say something and try to break things up. But I then thought that this wasn’t me. I couldn’t live with myself. So I consoled her and told her to give it a try. She told me that she was grateful that I was in her life. I smiled and kicked myself for falling for her. Then we continued this way and life went on. One night out of the blue she calls me and tells me that she ended things with him. She told me she couldn’t live like this anymore. She was so vulnerable and for a second I thought of pouring out my feelings for her. But then I thought that I did not want to take advantage of her. So I consoled her again.

The next one week was super good. We were closer and for the first time I felt that she spoke to me freely in the sense I was the only guy in her mind. Every day of the week was new and beautiful. I thought that this is the right moment to express my feelings. So when she called me to meet up I told her I was busy. Actually I was planning my proposal. So she told that she would visit her friends in the other college.

The next day, I called her up. I had decided that I would take her out to dinner and then I would express my feelings there. When she picked up, the first thing she told me was that she fell in love. I was confused and I asked her what she meant by that. She told me that yesterday she met a guy. I was heartbroken again I told her that I have some urgent work and I cut the call. I thought life was not fair and I blamed everyone around me. But I did not let her know my pain. We continued to talk as if nothing happened. The next week she told me that he proposed her and she asked me what she should do. For a second I considered asking her to say no but then I told her to follow her heart. I felt like a hero but all I wanted to do was kick myself. A part of me was saying that you kept her in your best interest and u acted accordingly. Another part was cursing me for not keeping my interests in my viewpoint.

Life was hell. I would wake up every day to see her messages. How wonderful he was, what he did and all that. I felt like a martyr sacrificing myself for the greater good. But the feeling was not as I expected. I felt useless and wretched. Time dragged on they started dating and I still listened to her blabber about him still hoping that one day, some day.

After some time she called me. She was crying. I got tensed and asked her what was wrong. She told me that she fought with her guy. I rushed over to her place and I found her sitting on the porch huddled in a corner. I went up to her and I sat with her. No words were exchanged for nearly an hour. Then she told me that he had asked her to stop talking to me and when she told no she told her that he will come back to her only if she cuts all ties with me. I told her that I will talk to her. She smiled and said thank you. I replied with only a smile. I felt my insides churning. I just couldn’t stand it anymore. The pain and the guilt. I was nervous. This could be the moment I had waited for in my life. But then she said that she loved him and she did not know how to handle things. With that line I knew it was over. I knew I did not stand a chance again. But I knew I had a role to play here. I knew that she expected me to help her. I had to help her even though the idea of her with someone else choked me. Taking a deep breath, I went in to talk to the guy I hated for the sake of the girl I loved.

I went in and told him not to worry and that I would never even dream of interfering in their relationship. I was heartbroken for the third time. I came out and told her that we had reached a solution. She looked up expecting to know the solution but all I said was bye and I came back. I did not respond to her even though I heard her cry out my name.

Life had no meaning. I had become a robot going about my routine. Every day the same. Hours merged into days; days merged into weeks; weeks turned into months. Then one day I was approached by a girl. I recognized her as kavita’s friend. She asked me to go meet Vidhi. When I asked her the reason, she just told me that she needs me now. I went to her place and I found her in the same position I had left her a couple of months back. Sitting on the porch huddled in the corner crying. I went up to her and asked her what was wrong. She told me that she misses me. I told her that I was doing this for her own good. She told me that she had broken up because she had realized that since the beginning she had only loved me but was too dumb to realize that. I couldn’t take it anymore. I told her that after everything, u cannot expect me to come back. I was heartbroken thrice and I don’t think I can handle it again. I am truly sorry. Saying this I left. On my way back I felt dead so I decided to get my life back.

The next day I called her and told her I wanted to meet her. As soon as she came I told her I didn’t want to talk about the past and she agreed. I took her to all the places where we had shared some pleasant memories. And finally I took her to our old school. To the place where we met for the first time. I got down on one knee and I said “this is where it all began. I still remember the moment when I first laid my eyes on u. I noticed how big your eyes were. Then I noticed your voice. U surprised me in many ways. But I always knew that you loved me somewhere but it was under many layers. But all that is in the past. What matters now is that I love you and you love me. Let’s make each other’s life beautiful. Do you agree to accompany me in this roller coaster called life?”.

One voice stood over the numerous other voices of the street and all that voice said was YES.