Another Scribbling

Probably it is too early to make a judgement about him. Probably he didn't mean that - probably... probably! Battling with her own thoughts she is driving her car - suddenly something clicks in her mind - she ponders over it. Was she trying to compare the two men in her life? No - No she was just thinking of the happy moments they spent together - I hope that is not BETRAYAL on her part! She is heading towards her place - in the back of her mind, things are running like a flashback. How he said - he doesn't want to talk! Probably he was just kidding. But the last time they met - he said he was not quite happy post their sexual encounter the other day (is it a bad omen? She can't decide - and hence she wanted him to clarify). Probably her friend was right about the casualness on his part regarding the relationship (whoa! again - is it a relationship? - check - keep a check!) they are into. Wiping a tear she decides that next time she will definitely ask him to clear things out. Oh - oh - but what if the answer is in negative? Would she be strong enough to lead a life on her own or would she look back to David? Would David take her as the way he decided to accept her earlier or would there be a dominating "new" David that she would have to face this time? Oh but oh why is she thinking about David now? Isn't Paul enough for her that she is having her second thoughts? Oh but don't you remember she was a wild girl - she had her wild decisions in the past - yes she can do anything. But is it "this" what she wants to get into, after Paul? Why? Just because Paul won't talk? Was David talking to her? What has happened to her? Why does she even needs anybody? No she not a dependent soul! She can live on her own. She will yes she will.