a lil girl in town

Well, its about a lil girl who was in search of a destiny , who was all set to follow her dreams. She definitely did follow her heart but never knew wat was in store for her to live her dream. Did she fulfil it ? Was she happy with it?

Each one of us dream and I always see that elderly ppl always advicing that u shd dream . Then only one can be successful. Oh ,but we dream of so many things. But hardly i guess that atleast 20% of it comes to be true. I too had so many dreams right from my chilhood days as in i would top the class, i would hold the first place in 10th std, would be placed in the best college, would be placed in the best company , would be best dancer etc etc .

But no where i can match these with wat has actually happened. But i can somehow compare and i can say that we do strive to reach our dream and try to fulfil it . For example, i never got first place in 10th std but i scored a 100 in science, i was not placed in the best of the engg colleges but i had a choice to choose my favourite subject, i never got into the best known , highly profitable company but i got into a company which has tot me how to manage my own expenses.

I think life begins only when u r independent , when sum1 sets u free, when sum1 wil let go off all the depenencies from u , when u start being urslef...

Having done with the engineering and coming all the way to an unknown place which was once meant a place for visiting ,is now a place where u need to make a living. Its not that easy as it looks!!! My first difficulty was that i had to leave my mom and i had to stay with ppl whom i was hardly close with. Well i then realised my first fear that i get scard to be close to ppl. i dont trust ppl tat easily coz i am scared that they mite hurt me n i may not be able to come out of it. thats when tears rolled down my cheeks when i saw my mom saying goodbye to me.

I had to go to office and i had to talk to ppl. Yes , there comes my next fear . I cant say everything to ppl in office coz they mite know me who i am and i dint want any1 to know the truth of myself. Creating an image of who u r not is a tough job but i tot tat was life.

I had to interact with my collegues and i never wanted to help anybody. There goes my next fear. i dint wanna help anybody coz i had the fear that if i dont solve their problem , then they mite not want me at all . i had the fear of losing ppl.

I was not into any relationships coz of my next fear . the fear of commitments .I dont like to increase the responsiblities . i want to live the way i am n i will not be able to accept any other demands, other wishes until n unless i am really wanting it.

I just wonder that at evry step we just live with the fear of something. i wish that in case we had no fears, life wld be so peaceful n calm. But as every1 says , everything happens for the good . y its becomes so complicated ? y cant it be simple ? r we making it ? may be...

I guess there can be only one thing that will make u the best person on this earth. Just being urself. Just accept the reality, accepting who actually we r and stop relating ourself to ideal world. Accepting the truth of wat we do, wat we tell rather than creating an image of who we r not . We have been sent with a purpose of being u and not to be others. For a sec, just think about it and be urself and see wat kind of magic it creates within u !!!

So be happy for who u r and be proud of u ... cheers to u :):):)